this could be entitled with "that-missing-you-so-much-things"

I always love the way you stare at me.
that both dark eyes when you're sad,
that tiny sparkling eyes when you're happy,
that undescribable eyes that said "hug me",
your eyes..

I always love the way you smile.
actually, you are "good-looking" with that thing.
specifically, your sincere smile.
or sometimes, your scary grin.

I always love the way you laugh.
the sounds that came out from your lips when I tickled your belly,
the voice when i told you one or two silly jokes,
ahh.. how i missed that LOL-things so much!

I always love the way you hug me.
so gently,
so warm,
so comfort,
so safe,
so much like "home".

I always love the way you talk to me.
you told me that thing, this thing, anything.
your story,
your friends',
your family's,
hers',
everything.

I always love the way you cleaned up my oily nose.
when you rub it with some sheet of tissue,
or the way you used your finger just to make it oil-free.

I always love the way you calm me down.
the way you wipe my tears,
the way you put my head on your chest,
the way you tell me "kamu tenang aja",
the way you caress my head,
the way you kissed my hair,
the way you make me smile again.

I always love the way you play with me.
the fingers that tickled my armpit,
or the time that you try to tickled my ear,
or how hard you try to put your finger into my nose.
sounds disgusting, but that is you! that's us!

I love the way you make me happy.
your jokes,
your texts,
your presence,
your happiness,
yourself,
you.

I always love the way you kissed me.
when your lips touched mine,
smoothly landing on my nose,
soft when it met my cheek,
lovely as it touch my head or hair,
sweet like it was on my forehead.

and.. I always love the way you called me:
Ohime-sama or Er.


until you read all of this, you have to know something:
I love you, and I'll always do.
I'm sorry for being such a hypocrite,
maybe I ran away from you,
but inside..
you're still stand as my man,
with that dark eyes like a bowl full of black liquid,
and always have my heart.

I always love you. I am. I do.

Depok, 6/10/13

12.30 a.m.